So today was a spectacularly beautiful day! Blue skies, warm sun light, and a breeze…wish I was sitting in the sand at the beach!
Riding in the car with the windows down and sun on my face, I got an overwhelmingly large smile…HAITI entered my mind. I am so excited I am to be going back next month!! Haiti has been such an unexpected large aspect of my life.
EVERYDAY…I literally think about Haiti EVERYDAY.
I first went on a mission trip in 2013 to Haiti and next month will be the third time. To say it changed my life is an understatement, it more like fulfilled it.
My entire life I have felt a calling to do mission work, and when the opportunity came in 2013 to go to Haiti, God pricked my heart and there was no hesitation. Immediately, I made it clear that I had the desire and intention to go. It was such a miraculous experience (and continues to be) and the cherry on top was that my husband was there with me for the first trip. His support for me to go the second time was amazing, and when the opportunity came to go next month, Adam didn’t even hesitate. He just asked “You goin’?” ….what a blessing he is to me.
There have been many times that I have been lost and defeated. And at my age now, the most pressing reason for those feelings stem from the insecurities in knowing/wanting to know my purpose in life. I prayed (and still continue to) for God’s will to be done in my life. I struggled with this a lot when I first got married and had started my first “real job” (as mentioned before here). I wanted to find what my life was going to be about, and what was I going to do with this life given to me? I was very depressed, and at times felt utterly exhausted from worry, being upset, and being patient. I began to feel as though no one was listening, no one understood, and that I would be wandering forever. I felt helpless, hopeless, and lost. Trying incessantly to catch a glimpse of what my life would be, and what my purpose is.
I have to insert here, that I believe knowing our purpose is never fully revealed to us. We may think that we have reached “our point” but then God reveals that we need to readjust. And there are usually two ways we react: 1) you will resist at first because you are comfortable and don’t want to alter your lifestyle OR 2) you may be so weary and so desperate for “something else” that the first door that is opened to you, you run through without seeking God’s discernment. Either reaction can cause more hardship! We are to remain faithful to Christ and seek Him always, lean on Him to help you navigate. And don’t get comfortable!
Don’t quit seeking God’s plan. You may think that if you aren’t praying and asking, that God will leave you alone in your comfort, BUT understand that you aren’t here for YOUR comfort. We are here to work, and God will call you for duty when it is time. And if you are feeling just beat, Christ has the strength to carry you. He shows up EVERY TIME, BUT always recall that Christ does not operate on your time. He will place or not place things in your life always for a purpose.Have PEACE IN HIM.
Mission work has filled a part of me that I had always felt was empty, and for now I gladly accept the task of going, sharing, and serving The Lord. I tell you that to say that things in life come your way, and are there for a reason. Prayers that you’ve prayed are always heard. Christ knows everything in your heart and has had a plan that will develop you into the Christ-seeking soul He wants you to be. And it must be said that some prayers will never be fulfilled, and some will be answered with a solution you never thought of. HE is in control and HE will bring into your life the things that will make it an incredible testament to His love and faithfulness. It may look different, feel different, and be different than what you had hoped, dreamed, imagined, and cried for…and that’s ok. It’s ok because faithfulness is grown and the harvest is bountiful. God knows your deepest desires, and what must take place to prune you. Remain focused on His love and care for your life, what a relief it is!